Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Anger rising.

They say that holding in your anger and frustration isn't healthy. Lately I've felt that's all I've been doing. Granted these frustrations are rather insignificant (the recent troubles of my favorite sports teams, a most annoying bad luck with the opposite sex including a Valentine's day idea being squashed because of the day of the week, USC losing on me the one game I actually decide to watch, and so forth) but even so I can start to feel the raw emotion stirring inside me. I've never been the kind of person who lets his anger take control of him every time he gets pissed, but I suppress it for the sake of not seeming like a short fuse. I've always thought I've been in complete control of my anger but lately I've felt this "iron grip" loosen. Before I didn't think I actually had a breaking point but now I'm starting to wonder how much more annoyances I can take. I've never been to my breaking point before and I don't plan on doing so anytime soon but to accomplish this I'm going to have to find ways to deal with it. I'm not sure I can rely on my internal "anger containment vessel" the way I used to. So those of you who tend to have loose lips with me because you "know" I'm not very touchy had better think twice before letting whatever the fuck you want come out of your mouth. Keep pushing my buttons and I just might lash back and trust me, it won't be nice for anyone involved.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Relaxation never felt so...boring.

That time of year is finally here. The time when we forget about school for two weeks and do whatever we want. Here I am, relaxed at home, thinking about things when I realize...I have absolutely nothing to do. With the exception of basketball later on today I have no idea what to do for the next 2 weeks. I've looked forward to this time for weeks and to have nothing to do is a letdown for me that you can't imagine. At least at school I see friends every day and have something to occupy 7 or so hours of my time before I rot at home with nothing to do. This is probably a huge sign telling me to get a life, but when you live a good distance from your nearest friend and no on-demand transportation system to get me there (a.k.a. a car, or parents that would actually take me there when I wanted to go), I really would much rather sit here with my good ol' TV and fridge.

Happy Holidays

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Ok, maybe I should be more specific.

When I first started using Myspace (late freshman year) I thought it was pretty cool. You added your friends and you started commenting and it was all good and fun for a while. Lately, though, I've been getting messages from giddy little 12 year olds and middle aged people wanting to be my friend and getting to know me and stuff, and that's really not my thing. I'm more of the kind of person who settles with the friends he has rather than to go out and look for new friendships, which I think is the whole point of Myspace. At the same time anything involving relationships started over the internet I tend to shun anyway because I just think that's pathetic. You see it all the time on Myspace too, people trying to hit on other people through comments. There are also people who have such low self esteems that their whole purpose in life turns into having the most friends possible, those who basically try to sell themselves as being attractive. All of this is why I decided to pull the plug on mine. I was sick of denying person after person who wanted to be my friend. And I was tired of looking at my friends list and only knowing about 20 of em personally and had talked with maybe 25 (compare with 130 or so friends total). So goodbye Myspace, and good riddance.

Myspace sucks.

That's all there is to it.

Friday, December 02, 2005

It's called homework for a reason.

A lot of people are gonna hate this but I really don't give a crap.

Nothing is more annoying than trying to enjoy the small time each day that I get to not do work (snack and lunch), but instead listening to other people complain about work and watching them do work. I honestly get enough of this work bullshit DURING class and the last place I want to see it is OUT of it, during snack and lunch. I think that most of the people that complain about work and try to do it (a.k.a. copy) during snack and lunch don't do very much during class. If you have a bunch of work that you decided to put way off, it's your fault because you decided to procrastinate too much. If you're going to procrastinate at least do it the latest possible time you can AT HOME. Put it off until the night before it's due, not the minute before. I don't want to hear any of this bullshit about how the teacher gives too much work. Most people have more than enough time to do the crap at home. Its so annoying to hear about all this during the little time I have to relax and not do this stuff. And no you can't copy my homework.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

For all you Mr. Good haters...

Last year most of the people in my class had Mr. DeVore for math. Now if I remember correctly, many many many people complained about him. Now we have Mr. Good, who I think is a lot more chill and brings a little more personality and light to a subject that many find dull and confusing (not me personally, it's my strongest subject). I honestly can't understand why people are now hating on Mr. Good and saying they want DeVore again. People say that "Mr. Good doesn't teach us enough, he leaves too much to us". Mr. Devore spent some time explaining the material and left a lot to us and asking people around us. Well the last time I checked, Mr. Good was doing the exact same thing! I actually find myself doing better now than I did last year. For some reason, now that Mr. Good doesn't seem to care as much whether you do everything or not, I'm doing better. I don't feel like I'm being forced to do things. I understand that different teachers explain things differently and some people find Mr. Good's explainations hard to understand. If that's your problem then go to Mr. DeVore! I'm sure he'd be more than happy to help you out any way he can, as long as you show that you truly are trying to learn it. I really think that at this point, if you're in this type of a class, you shouldn't have a problem with learning the material on your own. If you can't understand that as you go higher the more you should be self-reliant and willing to be so, I honestly don't think you should be in the class or any higher level class. Teachers, as the classes get more advanced, become more like facilitators than anything else. It really becomes up to you to teach yourself, recognize when you need help, and know how and where to get it. I don't think anyone should be complaining; this kind of thing comes with the territory (cliché i know). Oh and to DeVore's credit, a lot of what I believe comes from life lessons I learned from him so if for whatever odd, strange, God-driven reason you're reading this, thanks.

Anyhow that was my two cents on that.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

The Weirdest (Worst?) Thanksgiving Weekend Ever

This weekend was much more stressful for me than relaxing.

Wednesday - Wake up, looking forward to today. Call to make sure it's gonna happen. No answer. Repeat 500 times. After about 2 hours all stressed and mad, don't really wanna be alone, go around with a friend. Not a bad way to spend a day, but not what I thought it would be.

Thursday - Scramble to finish my hw beforehand so I have enough time to do the AP Bio lab. Then stuff myself with turkey. The best day of my weekend.

Friday - Friend invites me to mall. Still a bit lonesome after Wednesday so I try to go. Mom says it's too much of a hassle to take me, even though I said she could drop me off a few blocks away. Then she asks me if I want to go to Michael's. wtf.

Saturday - I mention the AP Bio lab. My mom starts attacking me, saying I should have done it before. Then she just starts picking at me at everything I do. Stressful day indeed.

Sunday - I have to go look for roly polies. First look in Verdugo Park. Find a big stupid biking thing going on. Only find three. Later look for some at Fremont Park. Find all the ones I need but all the dust gives me the biggest headache of my life. Finish the lab, I want to go to Narek's house. Narek calls, I ask parents, they say no. What wankers.

So there you have it. I missed out on a lot of good stuff this weekend. Wednesday was the one that started it all, and that's the one I wanted most. I can't believe it, but I can't wait for school.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Meet Omar: The Multidimensional Freak

So by my first post you could probably tell I don't like biology very much. I actually wanted AP Chemistry but in the high school world you can't be much of a chooser. Check out Karo's blog for more about that. So this is my blog and it will be (mostly) about me and stuff that goes on in my life. Every once in a while I might put something random for the heck of it. But now about me. I want to start out with music. Music is my love, my passion. I listen to ANY kind of music (yes some classical and yes some country, but only Johnny Cash). I play violin (fairly well) and guitar (OK but not as good as violin). There was a point in my life where I wanted to be a musician but that dream has all but faded. Right now I'm not sure exactly what I'll do but I've been toying with the idea of being a college professor. Think about it, you get to talk about the subject you love with other students who more often than not (if you're at the right place) will also love that subject. And you could teach it to your liking without having any pesky standards to abide by. Obviously there's gonna be certain things you need to teach but thats fine with me.


Why the fuck do we need roly polies for ap bio? And during the freakin weekend too. I dont even know where to find the little bastards anyway. And I need TEN OF THEM! WTF am I gonna find TEN??? I dont even know where to find one. So thanks Ms. Benzer. Thanks a lot. You made my freakin weekend. I could've gone to Narek's house, gotten jumped by Gucci. And a 5-5-5 deal too. Nope, you sure did me a favor there Ms. Benzer. Thanks.